I’m fed up of being judged all the time about having Cheryl/Nicola as my idols. The fact I spend time to go see them, seems to be a massive crime to all my friends. 

The matter of the fact is, I fucking hate life and I honestly believe that without music and people to inspire me and give me memories, I would be struggling a lot more that I am. They’ve help me realise that I’m not alone, and I can fight through.

I feel more comfortable and feel I can be more myself being around friends that I made online, through loving the same band than I do my real friends sometimes.